Day 98 – I am an athlete!

Where I am… I am grateful that I have had this time to really connect with myself again. I have learned so much about my body, about my mind, about where I want to go in the process of training. I also have learned a lot about my values and what I am committed to doing. Sometimes I thought to myself what the hell am I committed to? But it is showing up for me. I am committed to living in a healthy world. I am committed to taking care of my body and being around people who are interested in the same way of life. I am committed to having fun in my life, I am committed to really enjoying people, the world and making the world a happier healthier place to live. My commitment is to bring laughter, joy, love and healing to the world!! If I live inside of these commitments that my decisions just seem to be natural…. I love to train like an athlete. There was a time when I was almost embarrassed to say that I ate well, or that I wanted to workout, there were people who would ridicule me, telling me I was too obsessive this that and the other. Now, I am clear that I am so thankful that I am on this path of being a Warrior Goddess ! This just seems to be the way for me without a doubt!! I can’t imagine sacrificing my health just for money, for status, for whatever it just isn’t that important to me. My health it the biggest asset for me in my life!

Diet – Green Juice and Your my everything greens

Apple and Kombucha Tea

Shake

Tonic – Coconut Meat

Big handful of grapes and almond milk essential light, lecithin

1 raw egg a Big Yummy Salad with tomato, red pepper, parsley, mixed greens, 3 green olives, with balsamic dressing

hot cocoa with stevia

Workout – am Ran 3.7 miles this morning. It was a bit tough for me today.

pm Gym Training with Abs – I didn’t want to go and workout but when I got in there and started to workout I ended up being in there for like an hour and 15 minutes. I did an all over workout. Then I did the stairmaster for 8 minutes intense and ran and 800 cool down on the track! Felt really really good!

Body – My body was tired this morning. I was struggling through my workout. But, I made it through!! I felt like my skin looked a lot better today. I think that I was maybe having too much honey, too much sugar for me just doens’t work for me natural or not! Also, I have noticed that my stomach likes smaller portions. I have been eating more frequently and not eating  big meals! I like this better, I feel lighter and more efficient throughout the day!

Mind – I was looking at some issues around finances and making money and where I will live for the next year. I haven’t worked for someone in like 4 years. I mean really I have pretty much been self employed or I had somewhat of a flexible schedule. It always just worked out really well. I know where I am going, it was just a bit of like hmmm ok you better get going missy on what your creating. That is all. I feel good about where I am… I love the challenge of being able to create jobs or projects I like to call them. I was a bit stopped for a bit of today. But, I am back on it! Some of my projects are going to be on hold for the next 2 week as I will be getting ready for the show and I will also be in California!

Soul – I am really connecting to my values, what my purpose is, and where I want to go! Where I want to spend my time. What calls to my soul. What I want to learn and why I want to learn these things. There is just a lot of clarity today around many areas in my life. Things that I know are very dear to me that I will stand for, somethings that are not that dear to me that don’t inspire me. It is all trial and error. Sometimes my mind is run by fear and that I can’t change my mind on certain things, or doing things differently.. It is like my mind has it that there needs to be a way and one path and get on it.. LOL! Yeah that is really how it works. I just test things. I say this sounds good, do it, does it feel good. Is this something that I want to learn more about or not? If so then I learn and I go through the process.. To some people that I am doing things new all the time.. Which is somewhat true, and it is perfect, I gain insight knowledge for every new thing I try. I also get more and more clarity on who I am in this world… This is a defining period of my life. I know what my vision and I see it daily. But at the same time there is still a lot of inner work to be done. There is a lot more clarity to really expand into that vision.

I am feeling… a bit unproductive, resisting something’s, and I felt a bit of fear today, and then also a new level of excitment for the show and for what I am doing…

Magic, Miracles, Serendipitous Moments…. Hmmmm what happened today.. I know that I woke up today and haven’t been running outside and thought you know what I think I want to run, and the weather was beautiful it was a perfect day for a good run outside!! I had a great conversation with my friend Karen. She is so supportive of everything that I do. I adore her…. Miracle that I got myself to the gym tonight because I wasn’t feeling like it! I was at the gym and ran into my parents doing ballroom dancing there, how cute is that.. lol

I am grateful for…. I am grateful for my ability to push my body to new limits, I am grateful for dreams, and inspirations, I am grateful for passionate leaders and mentors in my life. I am grateful for computers!

Final thought for today…. You know there is a part of me that downplays what I am doing as far as competing. There aren’t that many woman that would be up for getting up on a stage in a swimsuit, or even train like I have trained and put this much effort into it. But, today I was just shaking it off like it was no big deal. It is a big deal, I have put a lot of work into this show, and a lot of work on my personal development that is pretty amazing. I have gotten a lot out of this whole process that is for sure! I also have gotten new ideas, and new dreams and it has been worth it. So, I am not going to allow myself to act like it isn’t a big deal. I have wanted to compete and win for so long now. I am taking ownership in my dreams…… Today  I declared myself an athlete. I am not just training just to train, I live my day and make choices like an athlete would!! So, there you have it! AJ is an athlete, livin a rockin healthy lifestyle!!