Where I am….. I am wondering if we are on track for good of our hearts, souls, spirits…. I adore technology and it is great! But at the same time are we getting more connected or are we getting more isolated. I don’t know I just feel like we have created a society where there is no time for rest. People can always get in touch with you. Always, cell phones are attached to our hips, computers and Internet with the snap of fingers. It is all great! I have met some amazing people via the Internet! I am also thankful for it, in many ways. But where is the balance?? Also, today where I really am is looking at the words we speak. To me there feels like there is a lot of talking going on everyday. Chatter this and chatter that. What would it look like if we connected with our eyes and our hearts before we said anything? That we actually slowed down to tune into each other’s energy. To only speak when you have something that is important. Again the meaning of importance is one’s personal opinion. But, not just talk to hear yourself talk, but to really be clear and to the point of what you would like to convey, and then say it, nothing more!!
Diet - apple
spinach, kale, parsley and a little bit of apple juice
rawfood granola bar and kombucha tea
4 oz of Salmon
Tonic and Mango and Grapes
Avocado, 5 olives, cut up coconut and honey – I guess I wanted some fat! 
Workout – am body power class at 7:30 am
5:30 10 50 yard sprints, ran 1 mile, and jump rope – workout was about 45 minutes
Body – I felt really really great this morning. It seems to me the lighter I eat the more energy I have, and the stronger I am… I know everyone tells me what to do, what to eat, but for me I am just doing what feels right, not what worked for them… So, if my body feels like some avocado I am going to give it some. The next two weeks will probably be a bit stricter with 10 days left till I get on a stage!! I checked my weight the other day, we are making some progress. Feeling and looking better everyday!
Mind – I am just questioning a lot today. On how I see people live their lives, how they look, how they feel… And really how I want to live my life. What is truly important to me? What drives me? What motivates me? I am also a bit nervous about the contest there isn’t a lot of time, and I feel like there is a lot of preparation to get done before I head to LA!!! I wanted to shutdown a bit today and not even think about all that needed to be done!! But, that doesn’t get me to far, so I just got to planning…
Soul – I feel that I just keep revealing more of who I am on a daily basis. It is an unfolding of what I am all about.. When all the mind “stuff” gets worked through, and I let go.. There is a space for me to just “be”! It is a good feeling! It doesn’t get any recognition in the outside world! By me being internally happy does serve the world, just not always the ego! Inner work is crucial to getting in tune with who I am and then creating from that deep place, not from a superficial place!
I am feeling….. a wee bit stressed…. Ummm what else is there for me? I am feeling excited and nervous about many things!
Magic, Miracles, and Serendipitous…. My mom called me and told me to take the back way to get home. I didn’t get the message until I got home. But, for some reason I took the back way home, haven’t done it actually since I have been here. I got her message though! I was wanting to get my girlfriends email address and phone number and she randomly emailed me. perfect thanks! I was thinking about Joelle and she then called me 10 minutes later… I said I need to call Joan and she called me…..Lots of little serendipitous moments today….
I am grateful for….. my parents love. I am grateful for all of my friends. I am grateful for people who are willing to give. I am grateful for people who are committed to living a life on purpose, with passion, and with love.
Final thought for the night… I feel myself expanding…. in the next moment I feel myself contracting… I can feel this in my mind and also in my body.. It is just the process. I am trusting my inner voice rather than what the world tells me… The world is a great mirror but it is only one way to look at things.. There is always a new way to increase your awareness, change your perception.. I am working on this daily.. I am loving myself, I am loving others, and continually walking my path, my truth.. It may not look like it is the “right” direction to some people.. But, it is indeed me finding my way back to myself, listening to that still voice inside of me that is my best guide that never leads me astray only leads me to the riches of the world!!
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