Day 89 – Started off great…

Where I am… I am wondering if I have even made any progress today. I am just not really feeling like in 89 days that is almost 13 weeks that I have been on this journey to get ready for the contest, that I have made the changes I had desired. I just feel like my competition spirit is dwindling, like I am hitting a burnout. Not a great sign before I leave for Hollywood in 2 weeks!! I started off today good. I slept in, I went and did an awesome workout at the track. And, did my thing. Then this afternoon, I didn’t create a schedule and I didn’t motivate myself to do what needed to be done today around my projects, which led me to be lazy, which led me to be lazy in my diet too, it is a whole state of mind…

Diet – apple and mango

raw banana bread

3 olives, e3 live shot, and greens drink

Spelt Tortillas with a bit of jam and almond butter

Fiber and Kashi cereal with almond milk

3 dates  and apple juice

Workout – An hour at the track. Who ever said you needed a gym. I ran about 2 miles on the track running, doing high knees, shuffles, and butt kicks, running backwards, then I went and did some stairs, and jump rope and then yoga. It was an AWESOME workout in the sun, it was a beautiful day!

Body – My body just feels OK! I don’t feel totally healthy in my body. The zits on my face are a sign that my liver/colon is not functioning properly! I have had a slight headache for most of the day too. I think that it was being at the bar with the smoke, it creates a lot of mucous and just leaves me feeling stuffy. I really can’t stand to be around smoke!! I felt strong in my workout though, and it was an intense hour.

Mind- My mind started off great, I was on it, I was working out, eating good, feeling good. Then as the day went on, I just wasn’t really motivated and I got tired, and just sort of lost that zone that I got when I was working out. I also I am just working through this halfway mark!! Getting ready for the show and then also knowing that there is still a lot of work to be done. I am not sure why that is even on my mind because this is what I want to do, I mean it isn’t like I am going to stop eating and working out the way that I am now. So, really there is no need to worry about how long it takes me to get to my goal, it is all a trial and error. Just dealing with the thoughts of I should be there already, and I wish I was there already, and what am I going to do when I do get there.. LOL!! My mind was running me this afternoon.

Soul – I feel that my deep purpose and passion is spirituality, organic and green living, fitness, raw food and organic foods, beauty, mind body mastery, sexuality, personal development, empowerment, art and entertainment, music, and creativity.. I feel these things represent me.. This is where I want to spend most of my time in my life. This gives me great joy in my heart when I write or speak about these things….. So many things are there to create deep in my heart. Just patience as I learn, grow and prosper in the ways that are needed for them to manifest!! yea!

I am feeling…today I was feeling empowered, peaceful, angry, unconscious, and conscious, hopeful, positive, and lazy

Magic, Miracles and Serendipitous Moments…I was going to go the gym thought it was open till 12pm, not so much closed at 10. So, anyways had a jump rope in my car and thought you know what I will go to the track and do a track workout, I haven’t done one of these at all in my training. It was an INCREDIBLE day for this workout too. WoW! The fun felt good on my face, and I was inspired to really push hard. The old saying when one door closes ( the fitness gym) another one opens the beautiful track! If we are just open anything and everything is available to us, if we are not attached to having it be how we think it should be!!!!

I am grateful for… Heat – since it is a bit chilly here at night, it is nice to be warm. I am grateful for the sun. I am grateful for grass and for mother nature. I am grateful for alone time.. I am blessed

Final thought for today… I am really getting the mind mastery way of life. That we are either controlled by our mind or we control our minds. It is work, it can be a challenge. But I can see the benefits of it in my own life. I know that I do much better when I create my world how I want to live, and then just do what needs to be done. If I give the mind time to think….. it just creates a muck for me to run around in… I can see the benefit of constantly putting good thoughts into my head, and then the power of mediation emptying all of the garbage that we accumulate in our heads that we think is true…. The way we are wired is just such a phenomenon….. I love the mystery of the world!