Alright, so energy flows where our attentions goes. This is the law. You will get what your looking for… The great question is what am I looking f0r? What am I looking for in my life, what am I looking to experience? What about this contest in 3 weeks!!
The deal with where I am at. Realistically what I feel is a top level for me to compete I am not there! I have made good progress. I also, can see what a good 3-6 more months of working on my strength and conditioning could do for my body. So, yes there is plenty of wide open space for me to live into…
What I have been getting the last week has been a bit unfocused, not that disciplined nutritional plan or workout plan.. I also have been getting a bit of uneasiness. If this is what I am getting.. Then where has my attention been? My attention honestly has been on not wanting to do the contest. Not wanting to be involved in the industry. I have been having feelings that I don’t want to get tan, and that I don’t want to go through the whole beauty thing, that it is a very vain sport, and that it isn’t where I want to put my energy. So, that is what I have been getting, not wanting to do it, and this negative vibe that leaves me not going for it!
So, with this being said. I made the choice to do this show. There is something available for me. I have come so far in the last 6 months of my training, of my relationship to myself to my body! So much clarity on training, on nutrition. It has been a wonderful shift! Where I am is that I wish that I would have made more of a transformation, I wish that I would have another 6 weeks till show. But that isn’t the reality. For me just not to focus and say this doesn’t matter is a disservice to myself and to what I committed to when I registered for this show.
What is possible in the next 3 weeks. I am not sure what is possible. But, I know that I can step it up to a level 10 for the last 3 weeks. What does that look like? I am committing to working out double days. I am committing to not eating very much sugar, to drinking lots of green juices, and green drinks, and salads. To cut back on nuts, and no dried fruit. Come on it is 3 weeks. How hard can this be? It is a state of mind. I get what I focus on right?
So, I am going to focus on an unbelievable transformation. Everyday I am going to get up and affirm what I want. I will also go to be every night and affirm what I want. Just stand that in 3 weeks I will look as good as I possibly can! I can feel great about that, and I can feel complete about that! I am just going to really give it my all. 3 weeks this is it! If I give up now, and just wing it, there is something that I missed in the full practice of being fully engaged in my commitment….
Be a Warrior, Be a Goddess, Be Beautiful, and Be someone that I don’t know myself to be. I choose to rise above all of the doubts that this isn’t for me, for all the fears that I won’t fit in, for all of the I don’t want to’s and I just stand in my commitment with power, love, grace and grattitude and see what comes out of being those things! 
Livin the good life,
Alexandra Jaye
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