Resistance

Resistance in the mind creates resistance in the external world.

So, as I look at my post from last night. I made the declaration that I was taking on a tighter schedule, less sugar, fruits, fats right? Well when we make a commitment often times resistance will come up in our mind. It is mind mastery to observe this and then continue on the path that we have chosen.

Last night I ended up having chips and salsa, cereal and raw chocolate, and a raw food bar. Yes, all in one night! It was like I was resisting and I was tired, and then I gave in and then just gave in a bit more and before you know it all that food was consumed!! I am not beating myself up about it. I am just really watching how I work.

So, I get up in this morning. And, I am sore, and I am tired, and my body probably had a bit of a sugar and processed food overload! So, there is plenty of resistance going in my body. I didn’t think I was going to be this sore, today but yeah sure thing… I am hurting.. Which is ok with me because I did new innovative workouts - but wasn’t helping with my resistance.

So, instead of stressing about what I ate, being sore, being tired, and not wanting to train today and wanting to eat whatever I want to today. I am just observing how I am thinking and how it is impacting my thoughts, creating emotions and leading to actions, or no actions.

It is just an interesting day for me… I am just off! fear, anxiety, resistance all of those things come up and for me I think that is when I will go to food… Or it is my mind playing tricks on me, telling me that I can get away with this crap.. Not so much, this isn’t going to work, if I am training and wanting to be the athlete that I say I do!!

I think also where I am today is that if I am going to be an athlete, fitness competitor, and really create it like I envision it to be. I can’t keep doing what I am doing and going to my local gym and workout out like I do. I need help! I need a team of people to work with, to train with, I want and need someone to push and train me harder than I would go by myself. So, I am getting to the point where things need to change.. Brings up resistance as well….

I am working through the resistance in my mind and in my body and just trusting that it is all working itself out, allowing the darkness to come into the light, that is the only way that it can be transformed!