Where I am…I have to say writing this that this might be one of my worst days yet in 56 days! Yes..I think so.. Not so much on my body transformation because that is going great, but in my mind. I don’t feel magical today. I don’t feel awesome today in my head! I am frustrated! I want to blame the world, people.. I want to take it out on the world that we are living in… That people are killing people, scamming people, selling people.. Just BS all around…. their are liars, and criminals, and just screwed up people that is what kind of world we are living in.. ok well that is what kind of world I am living in today.. Downright frustrated and not really caring about a whole hell of a lot!!! So, blah… miss optimistic is not so happy today!!! I woke up this morning after having a dream that two people I know were killed.. nice thing to wake up too.. wow am i pissy!
Diet – watermelon
tonic with honey, apple cider vinegar and lime
shake – simple and good
pistachios and grapes
green drink (your my everything), h20 and tsp of Chlorophyll
Salad with pretty much just lettuce and balsamic – wasn’t that hungry felt like I should eat
Essential Light/Almond Milk and an apple
Workout – Yoga and mediation for 35 minutes then elliptical for 50 minutes
Body- my knee felt a bit weird this morning but it was ok after I worked out? My stomach felt a bit off.. Probably a lot to do with my disturbed mind!
Mind- My Mind has been screwed as the day has gone on. It started off really good.. and then I just let it go and go.. I am frustrated with myself. being a bit too hard on myself and just being too naive on somethings.. i just let it get to me today… in a big way
Soul- My soul still feels alive. I see my vision. I just get so damn sidetracked sometimes from that connection. argh!
How I am feeling today..Angry, sad – I even cried today -, stupid, worried, anxious and did I say angry.. 
oooh yes I did!
Magic, Miracles, Serendipitous Moments..I got an unexpected call from one of my most beloved friends in the whole world Paul!!! I love him! Umm I was thinking of my friend e. this morning and funny enough he emailed me today! 
I am grateful for… boy oh boy what am I grateful for.. I am grateful for my eagerness to be the best I can – sometimes if it costs me some stupid ideas, and investments I am grateful for the woman that I am. I am grateful for my path. I am grateful for my family! I am grateful for love!!
Final thought for today… I am going to do a mediation, take a bath and head to bed and let this day go… waking up with new ideas, new solutions and a new vigor for life tomorrow!
Sweet Dreams!
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