Where I am… I am about to head to bed. I had an amazing day. I felt a lot of emotions today! I got clear on a lot of things. I allowed myself to feel the way that I was feeling and my intention today was to be focused and simple. That is what I want a simple yet adventurous, prosperous and beautiful life. So, just finding my way of what that might look like!!!
Diet – sea water – detox drink with minerals/ tonic
2 dates, 4 figs and a handful of grapes
Shake with raw power, orange, banana, lecithin, and a dash of O.J.
Green Drink (your my everything) and 10 Brazilian nuts – tsp of honey for digestion of nuts
Fish (snapper) side salad with splash of balsamic dressing and an apple
homemade lemonade yummy!
Workout – 3.7 mile run ( I was a bit tired this am) Pm workout was weights and 30 minutes of elliptical
Body – My body feels a bit congested. I was constipated this morning. So, that is why I drank a detox drink! I did end up going today 2 times but still fill a bit blah… I am also not that hungry in the mornings. I am working on trusting my body… And what it needs. Instead of going with what they said and what they did.. I am going with what feels right for me. The way that I am eating right now feels good to me. I have cut down my protein a lot. I am experimenting with it to see if I really need that much. I haven’t been eating very many eggs or fish! But, tonight I just felt like I needed it. I had two zits on my forehead. I think that has to do with kidneys being congested a bit!? I feel that my body is healing. I feel like it is really healing in a way that I have wanted it to heal but my mind hasn’t allowed me to…. So sigh… breathe… it is all good! 
Mind – My mind has been overwhelmed today. Too much stuff in there.. too much junk and too many projects, to many ideas, and it was just bogging me down the past few days!! Really causing me to get clear on what I am creating and where I want to go. If I am not careful my mind can take me off on a tangent that seems right and then I make an impulse decision and then later to realize that isn’t where I am called to go!! So, clarity is what I am really looking for in my life and just this direct purpose and passion – lazer focus!
Soul- My soul has been interesting today. It was called to really get in tune with my creative dreams. What has stopped me and where I truly desire to go. I got clear today that my essence is coming alive. The ”ME” that has been through everything the weight gain, the weight loss, the wins the losses, the pain the happiness. That essence, the heart that has and will always be with me. I was in touch with that today. It felt comforting and I just felt a sense of peace today yet almost a bit of sadness because I have allowed it to be dimmed. Yet, very present to the knowing that I can uncover me at any moment and just connect to my heart to my spirit and know that everything is OK!
How I am feeling today… I am feeling a lot today. I would say for most of the day. There was sadness, there was creativity, there was passion, there was a heaviness, there was peace, and there was beauty and divinity!
Magic, Miracles and Serendipitous Moments….I know there were a lot today.. There was just a lot of greatness even in the emotion of sadness… I had a wonderful talk with my mom tonight about food, about weight, and about appearance and healing! She is noticing the transformation as I am too on a deeper level than just the physical! I got a wonderful email from a radiant soul Joe – I admire his courage and I read something he wrote and it brought me to tears to see how far I have come in my own personal journey. I happened to get on a weekly call that I never get on and it was Geneen Roth who has written so many books about emotional eating - so it was aligned with the day of food, eating and emotions! It was a very powerful day today! There is MaGiC in this little town -I went to the park to do some creative writing and it was so beautiful…. I laid in the grass on a blanket, the sun on my face, the butterflies flying around, the smell of fresh air….. It was just bliss!!
I am grateful for… parks, for mothers, for fathers, for lovers, for friends, for journals, for creativity!
Final thought for today… Thank you for a most magical and delightful day yet again on this journey!
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