Day 3 – yoga lover

August 5th 2006 day 3

Diet watermelonshake with all the goodies in it

miso soup avocado and cucumber roll

dried apricots

cashews

salmon salad

apple

Where I am – I am feeling good today. I am really working on going raw but it is a bit difficult and to be honest i am a bit frustrated by it meaning here i am working to eat this great diet and i am overweight and blah… So, I am working through that resistance just knowning that I can do this and it is all in my head. i think i am in the past like i have been here before I don’t want to be here again and I don’t want to go through that process again blah blah to go down that road. But i am looking at this as a whole new way of life. This isn’t like a diet i am creating a lifestyle of eating that works for me and for my body. Because clearly my weight doesnt’ work for me ego. but there is something off with my my body as well, compromising how it functions properly!

Workout – I did yoga for about 40 minutes this morning. I feel good. there needs to be a scheduled routine as much as i don’t like to do that. My mind takes over and I just don’t do it. So, if i have a schedule that i have integrity with then I am good. So, next week there is a schedule that is for sure and getting up early as well get in that routine what a great practice to have in my life to get up at the sunrise. aaaah i would love that. to get down to the track and run sprints is in there in the am and running with randy is in there too. maybe on the days that i run with randy i will do yoga in the AM before and then go running. I have all of those drinks that I need to drink soooo.. speaking of i am going to go and drink one now!

Mind – I feel pretty good today I am feeling a bit like I can’t do this today but reassuring myself that I can

Emotional – I feel a bit triggered with my emotions…. with conflicting beliefs with other people. I know that not everyone should think like me. but that is where I am at today as far as what people believe on religioun, nutrition and judgement and just life. really i feel sometimes i come from a different place and i get frustrated with it… It is something that I need to work through because I really get fired up inside!

Soul – I did my yoga today and felt connected – there is still a deeper spiritual awareness that I am not tapping into that is calling to me. I am getting more present in my conscious living but there is still much more room to grow deeper into who i am on a more spiritual level!

Thoughts for how i am feeling – a bit edgy, excited, fat – really that is how i am feeling right now… so much work to do!

miracles, magic, serindipitdoes moments – I was thinking of one of my old favorite songs all i want to do is make love to you, and i changed the station and it was playing.. wow. amazing that is for sure. magic my two best friends from iowa are coming to see me tonight! I had a great day with my father.

I am grateful – my mother and her generous spirit, I am thankful for my body, i am thankful for the endless opportunities we have here in this country to be do and have anything that we desire!

Final thought for the day! Let’s Rock